Jolt!

Ok here's the deal. I like to think that I know it all. Most of the time I think I know it all, but I have my days when I'm clueless. In my little world this is what I KNOW:

• I KNOW that I'm suppose to believe in God and accept Jesus Christ as my Savior. I understand He died for my sins and that through Him anything is possible. 
• I KNOW that I'm suppose to be a faithful little obedient wife. 
• I KNOW that I am responsible for 3 young lives and that I'm suppose to nurture them and have their best interest at heart. 
• I KNOW that I'm suppose to exercise and I choose to push play 6 times a week.
• I KNOW that I'm suppose to eat 5 clean meals a day with the right amount of protein and carbs to go along with P90X and Insanity. 

I know. I know. I know. Well here lately there has been a Jolt, if you will, that has been thrown into my little life. 

I've been attending New Passion Church for 2 months now. I've met some really nice people. I am grateful for that. I've never experienced true relationships in church and I'm really surprised that I can get along with "church people".  A small group comes over every Monday and we fellowship for about an hour or so. We even met them for dinner one Friday nite followed by hanging out at Steeds Dairy Farm. I started walking with 2 great ladies this past week and one of them joined my Team on Beachbody! Each week the Pastor pisses me off. Because I am convicted. It's hard. But he's a great Pastor cuz God is using Him to really Jolt me! It amazes me how jolted I am after Sunday service. So much lately that I feel like I kinda wanna back out of church. Why!?! I don't know. Maybe because it's a lot to handle when I realize that I'm such a mess and I need to a lot of damage control. <<<>>>>God, please see me through.

OK and then there's my amazing Husband. I am a faithful wife, but definitely NOT obedient. He doesn't ask for much at all. And so what's my problem? I don't know. Maybe I don't like to do his laundry so I can get his attention by him not having white t shirts and black socks washed. I don't cook for him every nite. Why? Because one nite he didn't eat and that really pissed me off so I hold a grudge. There! I find myself "cheating" on him by looking at celebrities. Sounds silly I know, but I don't enjoy that. Even though it's natural to look at the opposite sex, I really want my eyes to be drawn on Dwayne cuz he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. <<<>>>

Then there are my kids. OMG...Let me say it again OMG. My six year old has been pissing me off lately. He's very mouthy and in smart-ass kind of way. He really seems like a teen ager with the way he snaps at me. My baby Brody is at that age where he isn't speaking and is trying oh so hard, but nada! So he's frustrated with life right now and I get frustrated with it too, but it's ok cuz he's my baby and it doesn't bother me that bad. Then there's the Princess who reminds me everyday to buy her a castle with white horses. She's so serious too. I love my girl. I think she's my favorite right now. lol. She gets annoying tho when her Daddy comes around. Hey, I just realized that my kids are awesome and I really can't gripe about them. NICE> ok next!

BEACHBODY! My LIFE. My Focus! I LOVE every program that I've done. The workouts are hard, but I loVE it! I can eat clean for 5 days straight then comes the weekend and it seems like I'm doomed! Jolted by the devil himself. The rule that I've been trying to follow is to have ONE cheat meal not a whole Cheat Day. But guess what? I've been losing weight little by little and so I allow myself to think that it's OK to just cheat for the whole day. Then recently it turned into cheating for the whole weekend! I'm putting the fork, spoon and knife down! I'm calling it quits. I've been jolted by a magnificent TREAT! Yes TREAT! I will eat clean 7 days a week and TREAT myself to my most guilty pleasure....ICE CREAM every Sunday nite with my wonderful husband while watching Desperate Housewives. 

THERE! The word CHEAT is obliterated from my vocabulary. I'm NOT a cheater in any way. I don't cheat God and my Family so I wont cheat on myself by ruining my nutrition on the weekends. Please friends, keep me in prayer and help me get up from this jolting experience. The worse battle in life is when it's a battle against yourself.